jealousy.

Jealousy is a reactionary emotion so by its very nature it has a reason. Jealousy is a very natural and normal emotional response to a perceived threat. Getting jealous is not necessarily bad. Problems arise when your jealousy gets unmanageable and your behaviours get out of control.

Jealousy is a form of anger brought on by a fear of loss. Controlling jealousy is very much like controlling anger. When you feel yourself growing jealous the first thing you must do is calm down. Take some deep breaths, try to relax and then take an honest look at the situation.

:- advice, the world wide web.

believe me.i am jealous and i'm controlling it.

kahwin

pergh machaaa.being a wedding photographer, somehow memang aku tersangkut dengan perasaan nak kahwin. sronok kot bai tgk orang kahwin, takut pon ada gak.duit lagi, nak duduk mana lepaih kahwin lagi, nak sara bini lagi.perghh perghh perghh.


takpa, InsyaAllah.
kita usaha sama sama.hang, dia, kakak, abang, pakcik, makcik.

ok aku dah merepek.bai.

i am being vulnerable

oh yes i am.

we all do.

betui,masa ni aku tgh bosan gila!

hasil persembangan aku dengan seekor bot via ym.

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ok tu je.pehtu aku dah malaih layan dia dah. asyik cakap benda yang sama ja.booorinng.

intervention

i was trying to do the right thing.

asdasdasdasnjnijiloveyoumkasmdasjndasb

From and including : Sunday, 18 July 2010
To and including: Wednesday, 13 October 2010

It is 88 days from the start date to the end date.

Or 2 months, 26 days

Alternative time units:

7,603,200 seconds
126,720 minutes
2112 hours
12 weeks

i love you nisa. <3

let me talk. let me

bigger responsibility.

*menari sotong*

sigh

dah tak selalu update blog.


but Im still here.
cheers!

so what's the deal now?

in the verge of making decision.


pfft.
never good at this.

FML

for god sake, stop saying FML.

I dont know why, aku tak suka sunggoh orang dok guna phrase FML ni.

bersyukur la woi.

hehs.

hehe.

dan harapannya,

dia akan terkejut with either one.

:)

random thoughts.

a lelaki won't simply called her kawan perempuan "dear".

unless lelaki tu, ambil berat pasal kawan perempuannya.
tak salah. aku paham.
aku pon sama.

salahnya bila,
"dear" lelaki tersebut adalah lelaki lain yang punya.

itu salahnya.

jauh

tergoda dengan mu, kiasan keseronokan dunia.

sampai bilakah?

aku dah letih dengan permainan ini.

stick with me, bear with me

kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh

kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh 

kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh

kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh

kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh

kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh kroh

sleep with me. join me fly in my dream.

penguins.

are we losing ourselves in cyberspace?

are we,or are we not?

gradually.

in reply to yunyi's recent blog post.
saja seronokseronok nak reply.

this is my words.
maafkan aku jika aku tersalah bahasa atau fakta.

haha,

"but, when you're already in a relationship with him, everything changes.believe me.you'll be like...eh..?where's the guy i know previously?"

how true could this be?

wan setuju dengan apa yang kawan yun cakap.

yes we guys will do anything to get you girls to like us, love us.

sms her every day,
every hour, every minutes.

call just to say "selamat pagi",
just to ask "dah makan?"

pick you up, send you wherever you want,
safely.

but yessss.
as time flows by,
things will change.
gradually,
no more hellos, no more silly sms.

but ntah. as long as there is love, nothing changes.
i repeat, as long as there is love.

afterall, manusia berubah kan?

huarghhhhhhhhhhhh

demmit!

i am so sorrry for being boring.
its just that im tired.
exhausted maybe.

hehs.been sick for like whatttt a week already?
haha.sorry, saya memang susah nak makan ubat.
apatah lagi berjumpa doktor.
bukan tak suka doktor,
tp tak suka bil yang doktor bagi.

thanks for those panadols.hehe.
who needs a doctor when i have you?

i dont really care

yes.
i do not care anymore.


okthxbye.

its friday

:)

siapa makan cili, dia terasa pedas.

oh yes dear,
saya terasa kepedasannya.

everything happen with reasons.
pernah dengar tawar hati?
pernah kan?

"jangan fikir banyak sangat,last last apa pon tak dapat?"
ingat?

I dig and place that phrase in the ground of my head.
its not that I don't care,
or,
I don't have the guts,

"you must be happy first,before making others happy"

I'm trying to make myself happy here.
till then,
if you are, they are, stupid enough to wait,

wait,
 till I comeback and make us happy.


(^_____________________________^)

its funny how things change

yes yes yes.
i change you change.

with girlfriend,
without girlfriend,
with girlfriend again,
without girlfriend again.

hahha.nevermind that.

makanan pon?
yeah.with all that apekejadahpunyanama makanan dekat murni SS2,
aku yang jakun kot. last week tengah melepak kat kedai makan,

"akak.maggi goreng pataya satu!"

uh?maggi goreng pataya? aku tersenyum sendiri.
tak terlintas langsung dalam otak aku nak pesan menu tu.
but, alahai, kalau nasi goreng pataya orang boleh buat,kenapa tidak maggi kan?

its funny also when kawan yang kita rasa rapat,
will come looking for us just when they are in trouble.
Im sorry, I dont do that often. if do, mintak maaflah ya.

aaaaaaaaanyywayyyy.gtg[eceeeyy].
kerja la sayang.
ttyl![eceyyyyy]

blablabla.yeah, u are rite.

cakap cakap cakapp.
i dont caaaaaaaaareeee.

do what you do best.
datang kat aku bila ada masalah, aku tampaq.
hmmph hmmph.

rotasi.

*hello! - satu kali
hai!

hello! - dua kali
hai!

hello! - tiga kali
hai!

[sepi, tempoh mengharap.]


hai!
hello :)

*ulang


perhatikan. nampak rotasi yang aku cakapkan?

currently,

bila yang bertudung berlagak seperti sedang bogel,

cium sana sini,
apa nak jadi dunia ni ha?

how can i help falling in love?

"how can i help falling in love?"


just don't do anything,
i cant help myself falling in love too.

i bet everyone else can't too.

Who do you talk to when your sad?

i dont really have an answer.

happiness will come, one day

best wishes from me, to two of my friends from MMU. they are getting married today!wooot!im happy for you lovey dovey couple.weewit.

gila wey. arab ang nak kawen dah kot.lagi beberapa minit ja ni.aku ingat lagi time ang dok jalan jalan depan pintu bilik hostel aku pakai boxer kelabu tu. tidoq kat dalam bilik aku walaupun bilik ang dekat ja. cakap ngan aku tak tengok aku.hahaha.palat.tautau nak kawen dah.

ily pon sama.dari rambut panjang macam puntianak tu,sampai dah berjubah semua. im sure you will look loveelyyyyeehhh tomorrow.

semoga kekal ke anak cucu wahai kawan!

:)

anything.anything at all.

ive just created the formspring.me account.


you can ask me whatever you want. ill try to answer as honest as i can,and oh. im not a genius freak,so dont ask me things that you know i dont know.haha.

http://www.formspring.me/irwaneffendy

:)

hello,awak comel lah.

dear kitty[s] yang no more,

i love you kitties.i  miss you kitties.

:(

even if you have to make it up,

people can say, people can do,
but what they say and do are entirely diverse things.

people say greatest pain come from love,
ill say,

the truth.


(^___________________________________________________^)

dan semuanya tipu belaka.

aku tengah lepak dengan yap,
tiba tiba ada bunyi dari talipon tekan tekan aku.

titit titit

oh.ada pesanan ringkas.

"awak ade kat mane?"

aku giggle sikit.
aku orang penang lah.hahha.

aku reply,
"sayeeew adew dekat umah lew"

aku giggle lagi.

seminit.
dua minit.
tiga minit.

tiada balasan diterima.

hahaha,bodoh.

kawan

hampeh belaka.

berambos lah wey.tadak pon aku tak kisah.perangai macam musibat.

hmmphfff.

Chilling at Sungai Chiling

yossshh.berikut adalah entry weekend 2 minggu lepas,where me and my schoolmates plan a gathering and puuff.tiba tiba kitorang dekat waterfall.

haha.best!
location : sg chiling,kuala kubu selangor.

sampai2,mesti la amek gambaq dulu kan?penting tu

dah amek gambaq,mesti nak amek gambaq lagi skali.sebab tak puaih hati.

pehtu kalau dah sampai 3-4 kali, tamak la kan.

ni bila dah tamak haloba.sambil menunggu kawan kawan lain check-in,kami amek la gambaq lagi.aha.

jalan dalam hutan.seryus gua cakap lu.best gilaaaa.lalu kat path yang berlopak. paku pakis kiri kanan,

lintas sungai,

tgk aku.bajet pakai seluaq tu,sampai waterfall baru nak tukar pakai seluaq mandi,last last, dengan seluaq tu jugak aku mandi.

ni haaaa.selepas berpenat lelah.cantek.wuhuu.sejuk.

ni bila dah tatahan sejuk,kamera keluaq la lagi skali.ahha.

tammmaaaattt!

hahaha.camni, tempat tu memang best.adventure dulu sebelum sampai waterfall tu.dah penat berjalan apa semua,nampak ayaq,haaaa.serrrroonooott gua cakap luu.haha.

sungai yang kami lintas, kiraa basahh laa senang cakap.tapayah susah2 nak selak seluaq.len kali aku nak  pakai swiming suit teruih siap2.setel masalah. ikan berenang2 dalam sungai tu,langgaq2 kaki.haha.geli kot.

masa nak balik ada kecoh2 orang nampak ulaq la,dengaq orang jerit la,hahha.tp takpa.keadaan terkawal,kami selamatttt.

apa lagi?jommmm laa p lagiiii!

happiness is a direction,not a place

its pretty hard for me to tell what does bring happiness.


a fake smile perhaps?


(^___________________________________________________^)

Kris Allen Live in Gardens,Kuala Lumpur

I've manage to get some shots,thanks to Hasanah who invited me to join her to the showcase. thanks thanks!!
most of the pictures are from the same angle, i cant really go around and shoot from different angle as the crowd was crazyyyyy!! i mean craazeeeyyyayahhahaha.


anyway,enjoy!


p/s: more photos; http://irwaneffendy.tumblr.com/

selamat hari isnin!

i had a blast last weekend.seronok.pegi adventure sikit,mandi waterfall. will upload some photo later.
kaki lubang sini sana,akibat dok jalan dalam sungai pijak2 batu.kena gigit dengan ikan gak kot.hahaha.lawak.


anyway.
im going to see Kris Allen later today with fellow officemate, has menang tiket.hehe.wuhuuuuu!

beberapa hari kemudian.

hello, mari, senyum.

apa nak jadi,
apa nak jadi,

dulu lain,
skarang lain.

hahha.manusia.

terima kaseh.

:)

sigh,

"you wait and hope that your patient will heal.that you haven't in fact, just made everything worse"  - Meredith Grey, Greys Anatomy.

penat la penat.

letih aku.letih.

berat kepala aku memikir.
otak seminit,bukan skarang.
belum lagi.

ipod touch yeay!

thanks to you!

woot!

cleverbot.haha.lawak.

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i enjoy chatting with the bot.hahha.she makes me laugh
try it!


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sigh,

tak pernah rasa nikmat dapat makan bila ada duit.

sedapnya roti ni!

:)

tahun baru.

huyooooooooo.

the other day,

i said i dont wanna go anywhere for new year countdown.

and by midnight,

i was actually everywhere.

i was in Ampang,

on the road to look out point at Bukit Ampang,

the road side,

watching fireworks at KLCC,

in Bukit Bintang,

and do some dancing,

stop at Hartamas Square for food,

but we end up just peeing there.

takde tempat duduk.

ate fish and chips at Rasta.

and sleep at home.

hahah.so much for a

"aku tanak pegi mana mana malam ni!"

kan?